Ok so today I was feeling ok but then I started feeling horrible!! I kinda know why but ugh! I hate feeling this way!!!

Ok! So I feel really dumb because I had a natural high going yesrteday then I saw my frined mike and went to his room and started drinking, well yeah him and his roomates are awesome, I remember a lot of the stuff I did, I just don't remember how I got there. It was sooo much fun though nicolette is the best person to get drunk with lol! OMG smoking (not weed) while drunk is the best it just feels awesome. I feel sooo bad cause mike had gone home and drunken us convinced him to come back so he did and then we drank more in his room, but then I totally knocked out on his bed well thats what I remember, then brother micheal knocks and was like it's 2 something you ladies aren' t supposed to be here we got up, and we left went to smoke somemore outside, but we where freaking out cause we ddint want him to get in trouble. We might  get written up but this is mike second time I hope he doesnt get into to much trouble. Ok so today I feel totally fine which is awesome!! but fuck I couldnt even walk straight yesterday!! I'm jjust totally tired I slept a lot but I'm just tired fuck I have a paper due tomorrow a mid term tomorrow and tuesday!! fuck fuck!!

Well today I am feeling really bored I have to read some stuff for english and wrtie a couple of paragraph but ahh I'm lazy!! I have a meeting for a club at 5:30 and I cant wait to go! didn't go to rugby cause my foot is still swollen eww!! I feel like life is passing me by! I mean I feel really invisible! like if something happened to me no one would care ahh! I hate fucking feeling like this but it always has to do with not being noticed by guys ARGH!!! I told myself that I wasnt gonna care but fuck! it's just like high school! ahh! I hate this feeling all insecure and stuff FUCK that! I dont need this!!! well anywho theres a dance tomorrow that I'm going to but I dunno what I'm gonna do this weekend I have NO money and I really mean I have no money!!! fuck I need a job!!!

Well I started school  this monday and I'm already tired as fudge! I dropped my calculus class cause math and me don't go together! So I woke up today at 6:50, haven't done that since lord knows when, to try to get into a psych class just so the prof could tell me that it was full, I felt like yelling at her, but it's not her fault that gaelXpress isn't up to date ARGH! so I'm gonna try  to get into another class that starts at 9:40 but it doesn't end till 11:10 which is ok cause it's only tuesdays and thursdays. I'm already behind in seminar cause I feel asleep instead of finishing books 2-4  of odyssey's lol! but hey I still participated in class buya! haha! and I still wrote the page I needed to just about book 2. I still have to read for chem another class I'm just a tad bit behind in but I'll make it  up today! I have most of my classes on MWF I have english, chem, seminar, and indoor soccer. and on tuesdays I only have chem but hopefully I will now have intro to psych that day too! balance out my schedule more. well I'm off to read and eat!

Today was AIDS walk woah I actually woke up and got to school at 5:15am! that is to damn early!! I loved it cause it rained somewhat! I love this weather I wish I lived somewhere where it wasalways like this! Well friday was homecoming, it was fun! they had better music than last year! it was fun trying new things before the dance! (good times, good times!) I had fun trying to shake my grove thing! Saturday was the soccer car wash that was fun but it kinda sucks cause it rained that same day! Ohh babies are so cute!!!

Well today I went to the franklin/eagle rock game that was some good football we won 24-21. I kinda lost my voice from all the yelling! woah some person looked really cute when they took of their helmet but anywho must totally get over that (tear). well  anywho I gotta get to bed cause I have SAT's tomorrow (at franklin) and I need to rest some.likes many boys out!!!!

Ahh! isn't the weather grand! It's so beautiful outside I love it when it's cold!

Well yeah! I like deformed golden bunnies! ahh woah! hahahahaha woah I'm bored!

Ahh today was coolio! well school was coo. For soccer we had to run the whole period which was coo cause I so needed the work out I didn't know I could do so much on and empty stomach but I do know that i'm gonna be sore manana! well after school I went with Maria(thinks she's a princess) and with Gloria(has many men) to the bank which kinda turned out to be a waste of time but I got to play gameboy advanced for like 30mins then we went to go eat at panda, after that we went to the park to look for organisms for environmental so we ended up getting some mushrooms, grass with roots and some mold thing, I had every intention of doing my HW but then I turned on the t.v. so yeah well then they picked me up and we were of to shakey's night where we meet up with Hana(token asian) and Ruby(short one). ahh that was fun I got addicted to that light game but I won like 7 times so it was ok We ended up getting like 2,800 something tickets and we got 2 tribal bears and princess pens for all of us ah that was noodles of fun! ahh why do guys have to get in the way of things, I mean it might sound cliche but it's true that you don't date your close friends ex especially when they were in"love". Ahh drama drama! why would anyone let a fling get in the way of a good freindship, seriously it's so not worth it ! ahh I know what i'm gonna do i'm gonna put an end to this little dilema cause if something happens it totally ruins our plans Hawaii, road trip to Canada( were I will meet and fall in love with my soul mate Alexandre Despatie! lol! i'm such a loser!) and that can't happen so yes my new goal is to put an end to it! ok well that's enough of that. woah I needed to vent! ahh isn't life a crapshot sometimes!!!! oh ohh! my senior quotes were "a day without laughter is a day wasted" Charlie Chaplin and "nothing ruins the taste of peanut butter like unrequited love" Carlie Brown.

Well yesterday I went to visit Mt St. Mary's 2 campuses. The chalon campus was to high schoolie. I liked the doheny campus but I don't think I would go there but seeing the campuses makes a big diff. in october i'm gonna go visity St. Mary's college of california. today was fun school our brilliant conversations  "I can't feel the wind"  "laughing exercises" good times good times lol! it is so filarious. woah school is fun being a senior is gonna be great woah it felt like a monday today! well i'm home on a friday, was gonna go to the football game but didn't wanna pay $3 um maybe I'll go at least one game.

Woah today went to pick up my schedule classes were ok I guess easier then last year for sure. after that went to go eat w/ruby, hana, and gloria that was fun we were talking about a bunch of stuff and I truly had a fun time, then I came home like at 5 and I told the guy I'm so releaved I'm glad I told him I'm just proud of myself even if nothing comes out of it I at least got over that fear so thanx (to that guy) well now I'm bored so I decided to go on and I dunno just browse.